Monthly Archives: July 2014

Sexy is…..


Want to know what sexy is?
Sexy is wearing pretty lingerie under your clothes,
Sexy is NOT having to show anyone!
Sexy is feeling comfortable in your skin,
Sexy is NOT feeling like you don’t like yourself!
Sexy is feeling beautiful in your pajamas,
Sexy is NOT having to wear short skirts!
Sexy is having a gut!
Sexy is being skinny!
Sexy is being toned!
Sexy is having a big butt!
Sexy is having a flat butt!
Sexy is feeling like you are a million bucks whether he or she believes it or not! 
Sexy is NOT what you think! 
Only because if I feel sexy about myself, then that’s all that matters!



Darkness robs everything from you,

Kid voices hurt your ears,

Happy smiles piss you off,

Getting OUT of bed,

Is more like fighting-the demons in your head!

Darkness robs the life out of you,

Going outside seems so undane,

Lovers across the way have a way-of making you cringe,

Darkness robs your soul,

Darkness robs your essence,

Darkness drinks you in, leaving you with absolute mortality.

But, of course, I opened your door.

I wanted some more!

I embraced  your lust of red velvet, clinging thrown,

I abandoned the light,

I gave up on the stars,

I gave up on the essence of a beautiful-hope endured life,

You loved me,

You opened a door that would forever change my soul,

I took the door-I took you in,

I gave in to all of your sins,

I lay, on the black-bleaked floor,

Looking up, unto your dark moon-lit night,

Take me!

Take me as I am,

Distorted, unable to think,

Hateful, wanting to kill,

Kill for a thirst of blood,

Blood that will energize me to walk out at night,

Look for you-my dark love of tonight,

You are my life,

my dark, dreadful soul.

Find me,

I am here, awaiting, your dark, lust of love.

Blood dripping down my mouth,

come, kiss me, take me to the dark paradise you promised!

Darkness robs everything from you,

but it did not rob me from you,

I shall await my King,

Await till you take my last inch of a soul.




Today, I am…..

Down, Down right Down!

Down to the Ground,

Down with a Frown,

Down wanting NOT a Sound!

Down! Down! Down!

Down, just wanting to Drown, with No Sound, all the way to the Ground with my Frown!

While I was Down on the Ground,

I found a shiny gem,drowning

Gem, Gem, said to I,

“Do not be Down, as there are many Crowns around”.

I looked around,

And She was right,

Why be Down when I can, Wear my beautiful Gown out to Town!

I’m off, I’m off, for the Showdown tonight,

I am in spirit and off to Shanty-Town.


Financial Inequality


You know, we are always going through our lives as fast as lightning hits our atmosphere!  As humans, we are always striving to be a better person, but most importantly, we are striving to make it!

Make it?  What do you mean make it?  Make it in the sense of the following:

  • Have a good job, career, college education, trade etc.
  • Own a house or at least be able to rent a roof over our heads
  • Able to buy the most current electronics

But it’s stressful, isn’t it?  Well, it really shouldn’t be!  We should be able to live a simple life. Right? 

I truly believe so!  If we work our asses off, and after we pay all of our bills, shouldn’t we be able to enjoy our weekends by taking our kids/family/friends out?  Go out to the beach?  Go out to eat? Enjoy the simple things in life?

WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO THESE THINGS!  But it is not always possible in our economy.  

But why?  Well, take a look at this video:

This is why we are not able to enjoy our selves as much as we want!  We do not have any economic freedom!  We are slaves to companies as they tax us, when they don’t even need the money!  It is a very, very sad reality!  

What can we do about it?  Not much.  Not much. Not much. 

Hopefully if people begin to awaken their eyes, they will see the truth of why economy sucks.  But people don’t pay attention!  People go on and on with their lives, embedded with their own troubles, which many of those troubles are financial.  

It just sickens me.  How can we live in a world like this?  There are some greedy people out there and it is sickening!  

Okay, financial rant over. 





My Brown-Eyed-Beau

My Brown-Eyed-Beau

I miss my brown eyed beau.  He came into my life with fire. Then he was gone.  Why do things like this happen!  Geesh!  It is like a fairy tale story gone wrong.  

He was beautiful in my eyes, his smell was so attracting to my nose. When we were together, there was so much passion.  I looked forward to our meetings because I always knew it would be bliss!  

But he’s gone as far as being my lover.  I have morals, respect for myself and have semi-expectations.  Is that why I’m still single?  Well, maybe yes, but I believe that if someone really cares about me, they will fully respect me!   All of me!  My mind, my brain, and my body!

You see, he lives free. He is a free soul. He knew we had such strong passion and a connection, but he’s a musician. He travels. He’s everywhere. But we fell for each other. Don’t we get credit for that?  But he wanted to be a free man.  Meaning, he wanted to date whom ever he wanted.  

Look, I’m not this old hag!  But I believe that if you are MY lover and I haven opened myself to you, if you want to sleep with other girls, I truly think it’s disgusting.  I mean, how can you make love to me tonight, then another girl tomorrow?  Maybe I am old fashioned, but that is my moral.  

 After a few months of our lovely days together, I wanted him to be exclusive ONLY to me.  Ladies, Im sure you get this! You don’t want to share someone you’re beginning to deeply fall for. But, he said, he couldn’t.  It wasnt the fact that he said he didn’t want to be exclusive,  but it was the fact that he wants to be free to sleep with whomever he wants. He does not want to be “tied down”.

Despite the fact that I THOUGHT I’d be able to be lovers, while sharing, I had to cut the ties.  Why? Because after a great weekend that we had together-for his reasons that I do not know, he stopped calling and most importantly, he stopped trying to see me! 

Something changed and he was not being open with me.  All of a sudden he wasn’t asking to see me anymore, when he always did!  He always made time for me.  He’d always call or text me atleast every other day and it was all gone.  I kept my distance because in a weird way, I had an incling that he was with one of his other “lovers”.  

But when I texted him saying I missed him, he always said he missed me too.  But at the same time, he never had time to come see me.  I am not stupid!  I am an intelligent girl.  I knew something changed, whether he wanted to tell me or not.  

Was it the fact that I wanted to be “exclusive”?

Was it the fact that he was falling in love with me?

Or was is simply the fact that he was spending time with one of his many other lovers?

I kept trying to probe, but he would just say that he was still interested, but he had been so busy.  Hmmmm…NOT buying it!  Because he surely had enough time to go out all the time at night. 

So, here is what made me break the tie.  The final draw.  The end of the end.  

He called me at 3 AM.  I was elated! I missed him! He of course was drunk, but I found it humorous!  Until….he started talking about the sexual relationship he had or is having with his ex-girlfriend.  The first thing out of his mouth when he called me was, “I’m here with my ex-girlfriend”.  But he ignored my “what the hell?”.  

He went on and on about how he wanted to have a three-some with us two!  Wow, he had the nerve!  Then he said, he felt like he loved me!  REALLY?  I had tears rolling down my face, while I allowed him to talk my ear off.  

The next day, I told him that what he said, really hurt me.  He said sorry and he tried to say that all of what he said was all lies.  I don’t believe it.  And whether he was lying because he was drunk, the fact of the matter still resided.  He was very distant and I feel like he just wanted to keep me on the side to continue to have me as “one of his lovers” that he can go to! 

In the end, I was hurt.  I am hurt.  But I suppose it is life.  I mean, there are many men I have dated and let go because they didn’t fit what I wanted.  But with my brown eyed beau, I guess it was different because of the connection we had!  And he felt it!  

So, good bye to you.  I know you are living your free life.  Go for it!  I am always your friend, but never your lover because I do have morals.