Author Archives: Cami*Star

About Cami*Star

I am an onion, peeled with many layers. My mind is an ever-flowing thinking machine. I love writing all my thoughts on paper and some get published here on my blog. I am a deep thinker, which brings along deep feelings-positively for the most part! I am a feminist, poet, writer, blogger, parent of two beautiful girls, a special education teacher, a lover, a friend, a daughter, a sister and most importantly a spiritual warrior! Thank you for reading All About Me and checking out my blog! Much appreciation from your truly, Cami*Star

Everyday Mother

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Every one has a mother. She could be biological or mythological. She could a Tia or Tio. Mothers are in crevices, shelves and dirty alley’s. They are watching, talking and looking out for you.

A mother is one who loves unconditionally, fearless, a super human. She sucks in your pain for your happiness. She will exchange your pain for your freedom.

You could have been left on a doorstep, but a mother picked you up. You could have fallen to the point of no return, but a mother picked you up.

She is your mentor, teacher, nurse, doctor, neighbor, grandmother. She is not just your soul, but she is your essence.

Thank her, he or shim for that one mother figure who has mended your jeans, she has soothed your heart and she has given you the last bite.

Mothers day is everyday. Every second your heart beats, she is there. She, he or shim is your lifeline. Your guardian angel.

Happy Mothers day to all the beautiful women who have sacrificed their baby skin for stretch marks,

Happy Mothers day to the women who have endured unjustifiable pain to bring you into our universe,

Happy Mothers day to the men and women who do it alone! Who wake up at dawn only to hear whines and complaints,

Happy Mothers Day ❤

-Cami*Star 2019

Sleepy Life

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Sleep is

beauty of pain,

Easing pain

Lights out

Sleep is

comfort,

Peaceful dreams

Subsidy of all

Sleep is

Rejuvination,

Breath it out

Suck it in

Yearning of grim,

Blank skies

Star lights

Fuel of soul

Diminished barrows

of dust

Everlasting waters

Drenched

and she sleeps…..

® Cami*Star

Easter Meanings….

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Today is Easter, which has different meanings depending on your culture and belief systems.

A popular version of the meaning of “Easter” is from Christianity. It is the belief that Jesus Christ has resurrected from death. His resurrection is a symbol of eternal life that is given to all who believe in him.

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But, Easter did not necessarily begin with Jesus. It actually began as a Pagan celebration of the of “Eostara”, the Goddess of rebirth. Pagan followers would have a “Feast of Eostara”, which celebrated the resurrection and rebirth of Mother Earth.

Today, in the 21st Century, the most popular version of Easter is Easter Eggs, the Easter Bunny, Easter Baskets and food with family. Some attend church if Christian and others celebrate life.

If you look at history and the actual definition of Easter, it is the celebration of life! It is a celebration of rebirth. What happened to Jesus? He came back to life, rebirth! Pagan’s celebrated the Goddess of rebirth! Easter Eggs is a symbol of rebirth!

Regardless of your beliefs, sit in peace with yourself and rebuild yourself to your highest. Spring is a time of rebirth of flowers and plants. It is a beautiful time where not only Mother Earth comes back to life, but so can you!

happy easter

@camistar.com

Lies of a snake

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Are lies your new foundation?

a base filled with cracks,

Do you hide behind crystallized

thoughts of your afflictions?

How do you live with inner

thoughts of deception?

A life of ungathered weeds

continuously growing.

Gray shadows linger over

your soul, eating you up

as if your a growing herb

in the garden of Eden.

Refraining from releasing

your snake from your dried

out grass, keep it up and you’ll

be left to wither in the heated sky…..

@camistar.com

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Sleepless Nights…

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In the midst of sleepless nights, what is one to do?

Uncomfortably sprawled attempting a meditative breath,

Not a sound in the world as rejuvenating takes place, yet you lay nocturnally,

Am I a half breed of a night owl?

Lightless nights energize my soul, curious thoughts, creative wonders in my mind,

Listless nights as if the only soul alive,

Oddly, I welcome your wanning moon,

Dulled beauty awaits as if I’m to hunt my prey, yet rejuvenation must take precedent,

In the midst of sleepless nights, what is one to do?

Insomnia Drawing by Joanna Smielowska | Saatchi Art

When life is down….

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When life is down….

When life brings you down, turn to what works for you! I have my own ways, but today I share what can or what will or what shall work when things get tough! All I can say is, whatever your beliefs are, you should empower what can work for you! It can be gardening to be with one with Mother Earth. It can be praising Jesus in song or in prayer! It can be in meditation. At the end of the day, whatever works for YOU is all that matters.

I have been beyond blessed to be led by my savior! By my Lord! He or She or It has never failed me! I am writing as a believer that big things can and will happen when you give up your worries and stress to your higher power(s)!

Amazing Grace sings or speaks of being lost. I do have to say that I’m not lost, I’ve been graciously awakened many, many years ago. But, all Christian songs always bring a beautiful light into my soul. Does it mean I’m some Christian phenatic? Nope. It means that I welcome anything, anybody and/or any situation into my life that will or can take me to the next vibration in life! I am a mix of culture, beliefs and religious. Why? At the end of the day, when we have been blessed to live a beautiful life and it’s our time to perish, where will we all go? Well, that depends on your beliefs, but in my world, we all go to another realm, which I call heaven.

Another one of my faves is, “I surrender”. Surrendering is giving “it” to a higher power. Surrendering is to give “it” or to submit to a higher power you believe in! Regardless of what your belief is, even if you’re agnostic, releasing a negative feeling and/or thought or feeling is beyond refreshing. It is the most beautiful release that is explainable. Surrender.

I’m far from the type of person who will push my beliefs on anyone. Instead, I empower each and every one of you to find your solace. To do find your truth.

At the end of our lives who will you end up with?

You.

Your soul.

All the actions you took or didn’t take will be within your soul.

Please share what works for you. …..

Cultura of today

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Born of brown colores in a “white” culture,

One life of Mejico traditiones,

Pan Dulce, Tacos y Frijoles,

yet unaccepted by Mejicanos.

Por Que?

Yo no sabe Espanol!

My grandparents were born of this California land that was once Mejico. They were threatened to refuse and disregard their raped language. They were guided to speak English and English ONLY.

Such brainwashing was birthed over and over until my soul dispersed. Dispersed into a “white society” where English was the norm. Where Brown was off, yet white in. WHERE Espanol was wet-back and English the norm.

Mexian culture is beautiful to hang on walls, to wear on your bodice, but dismissed as a human,

To accept and spew the words that you are “Mexican” is an insult to our society,

Por Que?

“True Mejicos”, whose blood has formed from the rape of the Spaniards and Aztecs are embedded to be “Mexican”. They speak “Spanish” and if you are not fluent, you are not.

Mejica from blood yet born of another,

I live for mi vida,

Mi cultura,

Mi familia,

Unbroken by our ancestors rapes, their suffering.

I stand brown and proud,

American born yet cultured with brown.

You don’t know me,

Don’t judge,

I am part of the melting pot that has accustomed to “your” reality!

I am part of mi cultura that has been broken down by the man,

Yet I continue to strive to bring our ancestry alive,

Wherever your ancestry arrives from, we are brought together by rape and pain yet strengthened by relentless intellectual gains,

We are America.

We are the melting pot.

We are culture.

We are today.

-camistar 2019