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Everyday Mother

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Every one has a mother. She could be biological or mythological. She could a Tia or Tio. Mothers are in crevices, shelves and dirty alley’s. They are watching, talking and looking out for you.

A mother is one who loves unconditionally, fearless, a super human. She sucks in your pain for your happiness. She will exchange your pain for your freedom.

You could have been left on a doorstep, but a mother picked you up. You could have fallen to the point of no return, but a mother picked you up.

She is your mentor, teacher, nurse, doctor, neighbor, grandmother. She is not just your soul, but she is your essence.

Thank her, he or shim for that one mother figure who has mended your jeans, she has soothed your heart and she has given you the last bite.

Mothers day is everyday. Every second your heart beats, she is there. She, he or shim is your lifeline. Your guardian angel.

Happy Mothers day to all the beautiful women who have sacrificed their baby skin for stretch marks,

Happy Mothers day to the women who have endured unjustifiable pain to bring you into our universe,

Happy Mothers day to the men and women who do it alone! Who wake up at dawn only to hear whines and complaints,

Happy Mothers Day ❤

-Cami*Star 2019

When life is down….

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When life is down….

When life brings you down, turn to what works for you! I have my own ways, but today I share what can or what will or what shall work when things get tough! All I can say is, whatever your beliefs are, you should empower what can work for you! It can be gardening to be with one with Mother Earth. It can be praising Jesus in song or in prayer! It can be in meditation. At the end of the day, whatever works for YOU is all that matters.

I have been beyond blessed to be led by my savior! By my Lord! He or She or It has never failed me! I am writing as a believer that big things can and will happen when you give up your worries and stress to your higher power(s)!

Amazing Grace sings or speaks of being lost. I do have to say that I’m not lost, I’ve been graciously awakened many, many years ago. But, all Christian songs always bring a beautiful light into my soul. Does it mean I’m some Christian phenatic? Nope. It means that I welcome anything, anybody and/or any situation into my life that will or can take me to the next vibration in life! I am a mix of culture, beliefs and religious. Why? At the end of the day, when we have been blessed to live a beautiful life and it’s our time to perish, where will we all go? Well, that depends on your beliefs, but in my world, we all go to another realm, which I call heaven.

Another one of my faves is, “I surrender”. Surrendering is giving “it” to a higher power. Surrendering is to give “it” or to submit to a higher power you believe in! Regardless of what your belief is, even if you’re agnostic, releasing a negative feeling and/or thought or feeling is beyond refreshing. It is the most beautiful release that is explainable. Surrender.

I’m far from the type of person who will push my beliefs on anyone. Instead, I empower each and every one of you to find your solace. To do find your truth.

At the end of our lives who will you end up with?

You.

Your soul.

All the actions you took or didn’t take will be within your soul.

Please share what works for you. …..

Thanksgiving

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As Americanos, we have been celebrating the day of thanks or what we call “Thanksgiving”.  This day means so much more than what the media portrays it as, but I’m sure you already know that false lie.

“Thanksgiving” is not about Pilgrims and Natives coming together to unite.  That whole ideal has been thrown out into the trash as we awakened to realize what really happened.

“Thanksgiving” is not about Black Friday and all the deals you are looking forward too.  That is consumerism at its best!

“Thanksgiving” is a day of giving thanks to all that we have.  It is being grateful for the little things such as your child’s laugh and their silly frustrations.  It is being thankful for your health and a simple smile shone your way.

Below are ten reasons why I live, why I love and why I continue to thrive……

  1.  My 16 year old who is intelligent, an Anime nerd and my witty daughter.  She is my first born and awakened me to what love truly is.   When I look back at the days when she was born, I was so young yet I matured once she entered my world.  She has taught me internal patience and unconditional love.  I have 16 years of beautiful memories that can never be replaced!
  2. My 7 year old who is funny, intelligent and motivated to learn!  She has taught me to live free and how to enjoy the little things in life.  I was much older when she came into my life and it was a bit of a struggle, but I overcame my struggles and it made me a stronger female.  She is the light of the family that can bring my stress down in a second!
  3. My husband. Being married is a fairy tale mixed with reality.  He is my other half and I’m so grateful for all that he does for my daughters and I.  He has taught me that no matter what happens, he is my forever and who can not be grateful for that?!
  4. My Mother.  She is a fighter!  She has fought against addiction, cancer and other health problems.  She continues to keep going, which I’m so grateful for! I have so many beautiful memories of her helping mold me as a child!
  5. My Brother.  He has been such a help to me as I was a single mother and even now as I’m married.  How can I not be grateful for him, when he helps watch my little one (his youngest niece)! He even helps clean my house while he awaits to pick up the little one. At the end of the day, I’m grateful that he is probably one of the only souls who knows the true me.
  6. My Father.  He is smiling down from heaven and has left his legacy of his intelligence, his wit and his love of great music!  Although he struggled with addiction, he never lost the love he had for his children!  His hand and his heart was always open and he was always there for me whether it was to pay for college or just a much needed hug!
  7. My career.  I love, love, love teaching and I cannot say how thankful I am for having the ability to do what I do.  Some people live their lives working miserably.  Some work hard for years and years only to make pennies.  I have been blessed to have everything wrapped into my career!  I can only thank my internal will to get through college.  At times, I wonder how the heck I did it, but I did and I loved every moment of it.  College was honestly one of the best experiences of my life.  I grew internally and learned so much during those years.  It made me happy to see how proud it made my Dad while I went through college.  And it obviously all paid off!
  8.  My God.  There are many, many people who understands who and what “God” is all about.  I am grateful that I have always had a relationship with my God and he/she has always been by my side.  If you have a true relationship with your God, you understand and comprehend that love.  I can share a few stories with you where I put all my faith in God when I had nothing physically or emotionally and I’ve ALWAYS, ALWAYS, been taken care of!  There are not enough thank you’s for my beautiful God!
  9. My Grandma Moralez. She was such a great Grandmother.  She loved all of her grandchildren, but I truly feel we had a special relationship due to my particular teen upbringing.  She took me in, she guided me, she was patient, she was funny, loving and a great cook!  I love her so much that it truly still hurts that she departed to heaven.  I’m beyond grateful for her for stepping up and helping me through my high school years.  She taught me how to cook, clean and most importantly, how to live a life with morals and how to give all negativity to God.
  10. Last, but not least, I’m ever so grateful for each student and school/teacher friends who have come and gone throughout my life!  I began teaching as a young adult whilst learning who I was.  I’ve grown into the person I am because of all those little and big students.  Each one of them has taught me something even when it was nothing.  Not only that, but there have been so many positive people I’ve met who stamped their knowledge onto my soul.  I have a few of my school/teacher friends who I still talk to and have become life friends with!  A few of my high school adult students still keep in contact with me.  Now, that is gratefulness at its finest!

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A fairy Tale As Silly as it May Be

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A fairy Tale
As silly as it may be.

In the Spring of the light,
Many centuries ago,
HER petals fell as
rain bent HER crown,

Darkened skies,
Lightning bolts,
Wilted petals in need
of a bright sky,

A Fairy Tale as silly
as it may be,
Was creeping upon
HER smoltering
deep dark skies,
~~~~~~~~~~~
One Wintery night,
Many years ago,
HIS twigs began to
freeze as icicles
froze HIS crown,

Gray’ish skies,
Bolts of hail,
Crackened twigs in
need of a light sky,

A Fairy Tale as silly
as it may be,
Was creeping upon
HIS smoltering
deep dark skies,
~~~~~~~~~~~
*Two
worlds
collide
into
one*

He drenched her petals,
She mended his twigs,
As
they
intertwined
with
one
another,

A Fairy Tale as
Silly as it may be.

You and Me.

@camistar.com

Raw Love

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Love is raw, deep and full of

aspirations…..

 

Love at the bottom of the barrel is raw

It is beauty and the beast mixed into one

It is heaven and hell at the same time

 

Love is not butterflies in your stomach

it is not googly eyes on your mate

it is not apple and spice and everything nice!

 

Love at the bottom of the barrel is deep

it is a mix of good with the bad

it is calm with a touch of intense

 

Love is not an act of neediness

it is not jealousy and fear

it is not neediness or helplessness

 

Love at the bottom of the barrel are aspirations

it is a pen to paper of goals

it is a cloud full of dreams

 

Love is not what you think of love

Love is a 24-hour job you hate to love

Love is raw, deep and full of

aspirations…..

 

 

 

The Crazy to my Sanity

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He is the apple to my sauce

the chocolate to my milk

the cheese to the crackers

 

He is the cracks from the quake

the flood from the rainfall

the lightning from the storm

 

He is the crazy in my sanity

The sanity to my crazy

the sanity in our craze

 

My plate would be

bare without my

hungry tummy

 

My cup would be

empty without my

wine and dine

 

We would be obsolete

without honey and bee’s

will you please…

 

 

 

 

Fathers are Awesome!

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It’s that time of the year to say thank you to all those “fathers” who have stepped up and provided for a child physically, mentally and emotionally. 

A father is not just a man who “created” life. A “father” is a man who has taken the reigns and provided by their own will. It may be a grandfather, uncle, brother, family friend, or a step-father. 

Fathers day is a special day because of the lack of fathers out in the world. Mothers (most) have an instinctual guide to help us parent. Fathers do not (most). I believe this is why it is so easy for so many men to walk away from their own children. 

This is why I give father figures the utmost respect because they have taken on a role by their own choice. They have a special kindness in their hearts to embrace the love children give. 

Happy Fathers day yesterday, today and tomorrow!

To my own father, thank you for showing me what unconditional love looks and feels like. Thank you for teaching me how to ride a bike, which taught me determination. Thank you for correcting my grammar, which has helped me sound “somewhat intelligent” (haha).  Thank you for being my parent. I love you. I miss YOU. You are in my “Strawberry Fields” forever 🍓.