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Pained in Gray

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She took one step to the right,
Gray clouds covering her light,
Tears day and night,

What she does not know is that her path will only make her stronger,
Trials and triumphs are working her soul,
Like a mechanic turning a car into gold.

Tomorrow is not promised sweet child of earth,
Wipe your tears as you truly are stronger than told.

Our lives are a roller coaster of happiness and depression. Descended down low, but eventually up.

We all know pain,
Although it hurts,
We always gain
a stronger heart,
stronger love,
a stronger soul.

Smile at the moon tonight as he may be smiling at it too.

**To a sweet friend who is down low right now. She may not realize her depression will not last forever, but right now she is pained in that gray.

Pain.

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She feels the pain
Needles puncturing skin
Blood swishing up
Numbness at the bone
Internal pain rises up
The brain cannot think

Wanting to be still
Life calls you
Aching each step
Internal bleeding
God help me
Mind going blank

Daily dose of pain
Mixed with her
Morning drink
She’s wrong
Pain is gone

Time to be strong

**poems and stories are all on how the reader takes it. What is your viewpoint on this piece? What is her “pain”?

High Tide

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My heart feels the pain of a million needles poking right through me,
To hurt is the worst feeling in the world,
Its drowning in the deep depths of the ocean, instead of grasping for air, I am grasping for you.

Grasping for an ideal of who I thought you were. Who I thought we were. Who I thought would swim with me all the way to breathing air.

Three years of patiently awaiting for the waves to settle down, instead it stayed high waved and never felt like playing. Obeying the peace that comes with the shore, how long can you stand the high tides of the sky?

I must swim away as I want shores peace, while swimming to my place, I have to succumb to piercing pain until it subsides…..

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A friend always to me…..

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I had to tell you bye,
Yes bye,
Why?
Cuz, if I die,
Shall I say, I can’t lie!
We are both so different yet the same,
I can’t take it, am I to blame?
You love as if caged in a prison cell,
Its there yet hard to reach,
I love as sweet as a fuzzy peach,
I give it away wholly everyday,
You are prisoned by your past pains,
I let go freely and dance happily!
You are quiet,
I am loud,
Your sensitive,
I’m a callused cloud,
I tried cuz I do care,
But tonight I have realized when all bare,
You are entrapped by your own mind,
I cry from the pain you try to hide,
I can feel the hurt,
So, I have to say good-bye,
My friend, I shall always respect,
Lovers, it can’t be, it will get wrecked,
As you see, I am a floater and you encaged.
I wish I could take all your pain and crush it to pieces, but that’s not my job as you see.
I shall let you be to figure out what needs to be let go,
Because that really is not for me to know,

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Hopes and love I have only for you,
but I need to fly to my mighty high and I can’t be pulled down by those sighs,
Two different world’s we are today,
But my friend
My sweet friend,
My dear friend,
YOU shall always be
Always to me……

A Moment of Pain….

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I lay in physical pain, wanting to get up,
wanting to run and dance in the rain,
That night was a blast,
but its brought me to my dark past.

In my dark past,

I brought life, to a beauty!
Golden hair, creamed colored when bare.
She brings me joy, laughter and love.
But when I was alone, it was all despair.

The maker ran away,
The fear of, WHO KNOWS WHAT?
I took the ante and went with it, SO WHAT?
Nine months of fear of what was NEAR!
I CAN DO THIS! NOTHING TO FEAR!

Time went to fast,
as it is all just a blur,

This was my CHOICE!

The punches I felt, inside and out,
She was ready to show,
To show this world, what I am all about!
Strongness will lead me, I SHALL DEFEAT!
I am a WARRIOR, INSIDE AND OUT!

She arrived with joy in my eyes,
but I was left alone, the maker has not shone!
I can do this! I will! I can be!
The best women left alone,
But the pain in this heart,
shall subside!

Sewn up, laying in bed,
She’s tearing up and
I cannot even get up,
because I feel like I’m dead!

All alone, alone in my bed,
Don’t feel sorry for yourself,
You are much more than THAT!

I am fighting the physical pain,
Pills popped in, Yeah, I was feeling pretty numb!
But I love her so much,
But I ask, “what have I done?”,
All night, with no one in sight.

I am used to this,
Used to this, my whole life,
Alone, whether there are people around or not.
But, it’s okay, I have nothing to hide!

I arrived home, pained to move an inch,
All alone, I wonder, “how did I cope”?
One pill, two pill, three!
No more physical pain, and my EMOTIONS ARE FREE!

Here I lay, three years later,
back to that pain!
I guess I did not heal, because it is beginning to rain!
Physically it hurt, but I will survive,
Aloneness, I can do this,
I just want to run and hide!

I want to hide in a rock,
a rock that will take all pain away,
But here I lay, raw!
Raw to the bone,

I am raw in flesh and in soul,
feeling alone, while trying NOT to fall!

GET UP CAMI! GET UP NOW!
NO ONE will take care of YOU!
Except YOU and YOU ALONE!

I shall heal from this physical pain,
But today, the Band-Aid fell off
And I just need to PRAY!

Pray to my God for peace to “BE”,
Pray to my God, to release all pain,
Pray to my God, that as I share,
you will take it all away!!

**This was written in June 2014.  Five months have passed since this moment in time.  That is all it was.  A “moment in time”.
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