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Was Then


When his soul cried out
for her,
When all he ever wanted
was to lay his head on
her heart,
never to have to hear
When he cried from the
deepest parts of his soul,
When he begged to have
her all to himself,

Was when.
Was then.

When he gave her his
last kiss, she realized a
love was then,

Was when.
Was then.

Now it is unnatural for
to love anyone else.

Was when.
Was then.


Inner Peace Talk


Do not! Let me repeat, Do Not, ever, ever take anything personal. As we live our lives, we are living our own story. We create our own characters and plot. Every person has their own story and that is the beauty of humanity. Each one of us comes from different cultures, backgrounds and ideals. When someone verbally attacks you or responds to you negatively, don’t take that personal because they are just reacting to a character they have created about you.


Live your life wholly as if you could care less about any negative thoughts, words or comments. Live it up! You are the creator of your own beautiful story, do not let a parasite suck you in!


©cami*star 2015

Comparing life to Metallica’s lyrics


One of my favorite bands is “Metallica”. Their words have always linked there way into my life. I am a lover of life and one part of that is music.

Today, I am on a high of music. It gets me going. It gets me through life.

But, this one particular song, has brightened the light bulb today. I was blaring my music this morning as I rest. Yes, rest on a Tuesday. Who does that, right? Well, me, because I fractured my foot this weekend.

These are moments that I cherish. Even though I am in physical pain, it has led me to my music as I have the time. More importantly, it brought upon a great thought!

I was laying on my back, foot raised to decrease the swelling, while I sang my heart out. What better thing to do, to distract the pain, right?

In my shuffle, came “One”, by Metallica! I never really linked these words, but today, it meant something to me. Something powerful. Something real.

Composers of the song, James Hetfield and Lars Ulrich bring these words into my brain and I have an epiphany. In the middle of the song, I blare and sing (scream more like):

“Darkness, imprissoning me,
all that I see, absolute horror,
I cannot live, I cannot die,
trapped in myself,
body my holding my cell”.

WOW! Just WOW! Those are some deep words. Words that held me captive for many years. That horror that you do not want to live. The horror that your mind and soul are holding you captive, yet you do not have the courage to actually end your life.

“Landmine has taken my sight,
taken my speech,
taken my hearing,
taken my arms,
taken my legs,
taken my soul”

And here I am realizing that I overcame that darkness! No one, I mean NO ONE can take my happiness away today. I had to learn the hard way. I learned by feeling like I was in that land mind. People get carried away with life. People will walk into that land mind and get trapped. Trapped into hating themselves, hating others and life sucks.

Well, we can all escape. And I am not afraid to tell you that I escaped. I will never go back there. Yes, we all get trampled every once in a while, but that does not mean you have to stay.

Life is not perfect. Everyone will walk into a landmine, but it is your choice whether to stay and make yourself suffer or to run. Run, run, run. Run away and go as far as you can!

Beautiful song,
Beautiful lyrics,
It is true.

Walking into a landmine can kill you. But will you stay? Will you allow yourself to die because you are to weak to get up and walk away? I am not! I will not allow myself to stay stuck. I am a bigger and better person today.

I hope you are too!

Dress and Feminism


Do you know what a feminist is?
Do you know what feminism is?
Do you know what equality is?
Do you know how to empower each other?

I think NOT!
Some of you have it,
Some of you do not.

What is wrong with people?
What is wrong with our society?
It sickens me….

Yesterday, on Americas, “day of love”, I viewed a post that showed a women wearing a tight, body hugging, red dress.

The owner of the post, made a rude comment, “Don’t be this girl, Put captions here!”



In 2014, yes, people still think like this!

Who cares what she is wearing! She obviously felt good in her gear, so this is why she wore it!

Men stated comments such as, “Instant chorizo”, “trying to appeal to the moo cow”. DISGUSTING! This is a perfect example of parents having to teach children right from wrong. We need to love all humans, whether they are female, male, trans-gender, gay, lesbian, thin, heavy, skinny or over-weight. Who cares what humans look like on the outside?

Really people? The outside of our bodies is just a shell. What matters is our souls, the inside where our fire lives.

So many of you men and women need to grow up, mature and accept all as they are. Until then, we will continue to breed children who will lack self-esteem, confidence and empowerment.

Do you want to know what is even more sickening? Are you ready for this?
There were even women, females, ladies who were bashing this red dressed lady! Comments such as, “Oh no you didn’t!”, “she must have been drunk when she was getting ready!”, “she’s like I can still shop in the miss teen section they don’t have mirrors”.


Amazing how quick males and females are to bashing each other, but how would they feel if people were saying that about them?

All I have to say is, when people say negative things about others, that is really how the feel about themselves inside. Yeah, it could have been funny, it could have been a joke. But joke about something else, because the way females view themselves NOW, is a horrible epidemic of negativity.

I will continue to empower myself, other womyn and my daughters. Because if one person can empower you, it may be a domino effect.

Whether you are female or male or however you classify yourself, love yourself from within. If you do not like the way you look on the outside, first work on loving yourself from the inside. Once you can love yourself from within, then you will begin to see what a beautiful person you are.

If you want to change the way your outside shell looks, once you feel good from within, this will be easy. It will be easier to get out and walk, to go for a hike or work out. It will be easier to eat healthy. Because when we love ourselves from within, we will not be putting horrible things into our bodies.

The point is, love yourself. But also love others and don’t judge. You never know what the other person is thinking or feeling.

Empower one another instead of bashing each other.

Wishful Thinking.

This Wonderous World


We have to really think deep and be in reality to understand what is happening.  What is happening today, do you know?  Do you care?  I care, but I have so much else to care about.  I go about my life and forget.  But then I see the pain.

It is sad.  It is unconstitutional.  It is in-humane.  It is crazy.  It is against kindness.  What are these people thinking?

The first people to occupy America, as we all know were the Native Americans.  They lived a prosperous, spiritual life.  I think about their lives and can imagine their peaceful lives.

Then as we all know war, hatred, jealousy and the unknown are brought onto their land.   Their land, which in now our land.  The supposed “wonderous world”.

The first people got on a boat and was hopeful to get out of Europe.  Some people were criminals and they were forcefully sent to the Americas.  While one party wanted to forget about them and get rid of them, the other party, may have been hopeful to possibly start a new life.

religion was a big part in Europe and many people began to “think” differently from the norm of religion.  They escaped the persecution of the church.  Others plainly came as indentured servants to gain their  own land.

In essence people landed foot onto the land of the natives for freedom from the church and to attempt to be the leader of a new world.

The land of the Americas changed forever. We all know the story of how evil took over and the air was filled with killings, rapes, lives and familes being destroyed, tortured and forever scarred.

As the world goes on, the Europeans live happily ever after.

Then the word gets out and more and more migrate to this wonderous land.  Men take charge and put forth rules and regulations.

Others such as the Irish are scrutinized as “immigrants” and now there is an agenda as to who can come into the land.  How sickening is this?  Why can’t we all just live happily.

The people with fair skin, light hair and eyes that sparkle with light are now the founders of America.  The world is established and then comes more evil.

They bring in “slaves”.  Now there are people of a darker color on the American land and they are treated the same way as the Natives.  Who gives these people the right to do such hatred acts?

As time goes on, our world understands, accepts, challenges, fights this rubber band of hatred and inequality.

We overcome and are now all living together with no one saying a certain person of a certain color cannot enter.

But have we really overcome this hatred?


Now, we are living in the 21st Century.  We are supposed to learn from our mistakes.  We are supposed to educate ourselves on our history, so we don’t make the same mistakes.

We are now living in a world of technology.  One would think that we have now diminished the negative world out of our hands.

But,  just like a drama, hatred and unhealthy relationship arrive on the table, if one does not get help, they will continue on with their patterns.

The world needs help!  It is not free!  It is money hungry, which is evil.  It is a democratic word, but we are all ruled by one ruler, which is not really democratic.

The Americas are still not allowing people in and are racial profiling, which is amazingly going backwards.

America has jobs.  America is freedom, compared to other countries.  We have the freedom of speech.  But we blockade the States like we are some glamorous world in which we do not want to be infected.

It has gotten to the point, where innocent people want to come to this supposedly glamorous world.  They think it like living the “dream” they are never able to grasp.  They think if they come to America, they will get a job, they will have money.  They will be able to afford housing and food.

And now our world changes. “Outsiders” fight to come over.

They go as far as climbing fences.  They put their lives in danger.  They leave their children behind, so they can enter this wonderous world.  They cross rivers, lakes and oceans.  They almost die.  What kind of life is this?

Now this “wonderous world” is that un-reachable goal.  Everyone wants it.  It’s reverse psychology.  If you cannot have it, you want it more.

Now in the Americas, we have what we call “immigrants”.  Immigration defines a group of people who move to new country for a variety of  reasons:

“Illegal Immigrants” are the ones who come to the Americas that are typically poor and do not have a lot of resources.

“A person may become an illegal immigrant by one of three ways: The first is  to enter a country without consent from the country’s government.  The second is  when the immigrant stays longer than the time he was legally granted to stay in  the country. The third is when an immigrant violates the terms of consent, such  as illegal activity, unemployment or leaving school. Consent is granted through  a country’s consulate or embassy by stamping a valid passport with appropriate  visa information”.  (Wikipedia)

This is where it gets ugly.  As illegal immigrants want to be in America so bad, they put their lives and bodies in danger.

They fight the INS every second of the day.  They can be working and the INS comes in and they run away from the predator that will eat them alive.

They have to work in environments that most people would not even consider.  They go out onto farm fields and pick fruits and veggies.  Their hands suffer.  They get poison in their eyes.  They get sun damage.  They work from dusk till dawn with one meal.  They are the new “slaves” of America.  It is quit ironic that money  hungry people will hire illegal immigrants to save a buck, but they do not care or realize the physical pain these people will go through for the sake of their evil money greed.

While the men are out on the field, women only have several choices.  They cannot work for a company as they are not “legal”.  They can work as a maid, a nanny or work in underpaid factories.

And as we all know, but turn our heads to the reality of it, they get taken advantage of.  The end.

It is a sad, sad cycle.  I wish our world did not treat people badly.  Who cares if they are legal or not!  They are human.

To want to live in the wonderous world is to…………

put you body in pain,

The want puts your emotions on

a high drive of an up and down crane.

The want keeps your children behind

like the orphaned and unwanted.

The want destroys your self-worth

as a criminal does not care.

Is this world really worth all the commotion and pain?

I do not know, I do not know that pain.

But I see you.  I see your eyes.

Their full of pain as that up and down crane.

Why do you do it?

Is it all the worth it?

I would rather stay, but that is not for me to say.

I pray for you and hope that our world will one day change.

I love you like a human that wishes you had no pain.

One day, one day, we’ll live in this world,

drama free and free for all of YOU!!

**This is written on behalf of my own opinion.  You may not agree, but it is where my brain thoughts are.  This is written by Camille Ruiz and it is copyrighted

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