“So proud of you”,

I wish she would say,

But it doesn’t come out,

It just doesn’t come out, that way!

A FEELING Of SHOCK, IT RUNS THROUGH MY VEINS,

IT’S OKAY, I WILL NOT STRAIN.

“Okay, that’s good” , in a monotone voice.

She shrugs her shoulders and then walks away.

I LOOK AT HER,  BLANKNESS IN HER EYES,

WHATS WRONG WITH YOU, IS ALL I WANT TO SAY!

GULPING DOWN, THE TEAR THAT I FEAR,

I SUCK IT UP, CAUSE I AM THAT DEAR.

I stand there. I await.

Awaiting that hug.

Nothing comes out, oh….just that shrug.

A SHRUG?

A SHRUG?

IS THAT ALL I GET?

I WANT MORE!

MORE!

MORE!

MORE!

I sit and I wonder.

I sit and I ponder.

I sit and wonder why .

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

Why is this such a blunder?

What will happen when you die?

Will I cry? Will I be shy?  Will I fly and ask why?

I WAITED and WAITED.

I REALIZED REAL QUICK.

AS A KID, I HAD TO BE FIXED.

I have no memory,

Memory of those three little words, 

Have I heard them at all? 

I cannot recall. 

I care, I share and hope to be loved,

but from the looks of it, you are in fear.

I’ll love you, know matter what!

YOU SHOULD BE LUCKY,

THAT I CARE

 I CARE!

AND I CARE!

I have no more fears, they are all but gone.

They have been gone for  years,

A cheer for a beer!

No lasting love, all but one.

LOVE ME, 

HOLD ME,

TELL ME,

DON’T BE AFRAID,

SAY IT!

JUST SAY IT,

SAY, THOSE THREE little words…..