“So proud of you”,
I wish she would say,
But it doesn’t come out,
It just doesn’t come out, that way!
A FEELING Of SHOCK, IT RUNS THROUGH MY VEINS,
IT’S OKAY, I WILL NOT STRAIN.
“Okay, that’s good” , in a monotone voice.
She shrugs her shoulders and then walks away.
I LOOK AT HER, BLANKNESS IN HER EYES,
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU, IS ALL I WANT TO SAY!
GULPING DOWN, THE TEAR THAT I FEAR,
I SUCK IT UP, CAUSE I AM THAT DEAR.
I stand there. I await.
Awaiting that hug.
Nothing comes out, oh….just that shrug.
IS THAT ALL I GET?
I WANT MORE!
I sit and I wonder.
I sit and I ponder.
I sit and wonder why .
Why is this such a blunder?
What will happen when you die?
Will I cry? Will I be shy? Will I fly and ask why?
I WAITED and WAITED.
I REALIZED REAL QUICK.
AS A KID, I HAD TO BE FIXED.
I have no memory,
Memory of those three little words,
Have I heard them at all?
I cannot recall.
I care, I share and hope to be loved,
but from the looks of it, you are in fear.
I’ll love you, know matter what!
YOU SHOULD BE LUCKY,
THAT I CARE
AND I CARE!
I have no more fears, they are all but gone.
They have been gone for years,
A cheer for a beer!
No lasting love, all but one.
DON’T BE AFRAID,
JUST SAY IT,
SAY, THOSE THREE little words…..