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C-Virus Life

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It has been about 4 weeks of quarantine during this “coronavirus 2020” that has hit our reality. A worldly demise. A pandemic!

Here I am stand in America. The land of the free. The land of freedom. The United States, yet we are not so “united” as expected.

It is unreal. I would have never thought! I mean, a war amongst leaders, okay, believable, but a war against a minuscule virus??? Unreal.

This is today.

Our reality.

Truth.

Pandemic.

Amongst of all humanity.

Happily, I’m making the most of my situation. I have been taking advantage of waking up late, drinking coffee all morning, not wearing make-up and embracing the slow life!

I love taking walks whenever I want, homeschooling my 2nd grader and watching my highschool senior work independently. 

Honesty, I feel like I’m in a dream come true, but you have to remember that each one of us has a different “reality”!

Our “Personal eye” IS WHAT WE SEE and feel.  All I can say is that I have have no problem with my life and my reality because I manifest the truth. My truth.

We are on a disproportionate reality and we are in the middle of a huge world change, but I leave a note to remind you to enjoy your life.

Enjoy the present moment. Embrace what you are given. We are only given one life.

Hugs.

 

Another Year….

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Another year to depart from and say good-bye to, it was fun, it was sad and it was happy! A new year to embark on to renew yourself, to say bye to the old and hello to the new. Are you ready? Are YOU ready? I can’t hear you!! ARE YOU READY!!!!!????? (“ahem” as I clear my thought)

I am READY! LET’S DO THIS! I love new beginnings, it is an ability to begin anew, it’s a fresh start. A new year usually gets us to think, “how can I better myself?” Many create “resolutions” to help them improve their lives, whether it be physically, emotionally or spirtitually. I on the other hand, always strive to better myself, but not with “resolutions”. Years ago, I did create “resolutions”, I lived on that band wagon for a very long time, but I always failed, gave up and then life went on. It’s like, what’s the point? As I’ve moved on to bigger and better things (in my own view), I have ditched what is called “resolutions”! Instead I live a life of what I call a learning curve, a chance to redeem myself, a life of what is meant to be. What I didn’t learn or accomplish last year will be a goal for the upcoming year.

My new year thoughts and wishes are to strive and be one with reality in order to better myself as I climb my life of stairs. Did you read that word….”reality”! REALITY! Living in reality is something all humans need to work on. We do NOT live in yesterday’s mistakes, although our past does open up our minds! We do not live in tomorrow, which is unreachable. BUT, we are alive right here and right now. I’m not going to dig into our current earth, climate and political issues, but those who are reading this, are fully aware of them. We need to stay in today, stay in reality, stay on what is going on now in order to move forward. Enough said.

Do we always climb upwards and never fall or in a real sense fail? Of course not, we are only human. Luckily, we are born covered with thick skin to protect our inner parts. We get scraped, burned and maybe break a bone or two, but do we heal? We always do! You know the saying, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonaide!” This is my motto in life~ I live to make do with what I have, to make do with the current road I am on, I just do it and await for the next page. We can only make our own selves happy right? So, I just do it!

My life is like riding a super long escalator, which is my road to enlightment. We will always climb upwards, but it’s up to you, it’s up to me to keep climbing! Are you ready to climb? Are you ready to get to the next level? I hope so because I love climbing. I have happily come to a point in my life where I can care less about a daily stress or weekly struggle because I know that at the end of the day, it is a learning experience and I can only go up! I have chosen to no longer go down at this point in my life, I’ve been there, done that!

This is exactly why I look forward to new beginnings! I look forward to new chapters, most importantly, I look foward to riding my escalator that is traveling up, “to infinity and beyyyyoooond” as the infamous Buzz Lightyear would say. ……

Does the escalator take us all to the next level of life? Unfortunately, the answer is no and I will fully say I know this from experience! We go up, we stop, we go down and we may fail. I’m sure you know a soul or two who do not seem to grow spiritually or mentally at ALL. Our best intentions is to “want” to help them or slap some sense into them, but at one point or another, we come to the realization that our wanting to help has nothing to do with helping them! When you have moved past the ugly and toxins in our lives, it is so much easier to climb up, but not everyone is “there”. We may think it is easy to get enlightened, but when your down and full of regrets, toxins and maybe even addiction, it may seem IMPOSSIBLE to step onto that esalator.

So, what happens to these souls? The souls we long to help? Nothing. Exactly nothing. Nada. And it is sad to say that we cannot do anything about it. I mean, yeah, we can reah out and attempt to lead them to the light. We can provide our love and compassion, but really, at the end of the day, they must make the choice to heal and to step forward.

Those who are stuck, may stay on their level for years, decades or maybe until their last breath. They will stay where they are until they are ready to move forward, until they are ready to see the truth, until they are ready to open up their weaknesses and let go. We cannot do anything for them (sadly), we cannot force them on the escalator (unfortunately), they must move forward on their own (although I wish it were that easy). They always have the ability to get on the escalator, it never leaves. Ever! When you go to the mall, do you ever see the escaltor move? NO, NEVER! This is the same in our lives, our life escalator never moves, it’s impossible. Remember, always remember that regardless of where you are in life, you always have the choice and chance to get on that escalator to help you move up in your life. Take a chance, make a choice!

Once again, this is why I love new beginnings, which today, I speak on behalf of our upcoming New Year. No matter what has happened yesterday, a year ago or even 20 years ago, you can never go back to that moment, all you can do is go foward. Isn’t that a beautiful reality? I think so!

As the years in my life keep coming up and moving forward over and over again, I have discovered that I have a love-dislike relationship with them! I’m sorry “time”, but I have to be honest with you in order to be honest with myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love riding my escalator each year, it’s fun! I’m like a child in the sense that I get excited as my right foot steps on my escalator with a happy and a giddy feeling of the unknown. What will be upstairs? Will it be a huge candy land that will fill me up with joy? A pink cloud filled with purple unicorns? All of my hopes and dreams ready to engulf me? My innocent self wants to say “yes, yes and yes!”

Unfortunately, my life is not always sugar and spice, but at the end of the day or year in this matter all twists and turns are teachable moments. Each step I’ve taken turns into beauty and this is only because I’m able to let go and let God (a crucial part of letting go of toxins).

As one continues to grow mentally and spiritually each year, our age and bodies age as well, which is the part of my “dislike” of each year passing (who doesnt, right?) But it’s all okay when one has the right mind set. Personally, I’d rather age gracefully as I continue to grow to a higher level of consciousnesses than be stuck in a beautiful body with a depleted sense of self.

And back to….another year shall pass. 2020…wow! As a kid who grew up in the 80s, as a teen in the 90s, the year 2020 seemed unreachable. It sounded so futuristic! Even the thought that I’d be in my early 40s was unheard of in my youth.

I clearly remember graduating college in “2000”, that was my overall goal. I didn’t want 1999 or 2001, I wanted to be the graduate of “2000” since it was sooooo “millenial” back then. Now, it’s just a joke in my head. It was just another year that came right after 1999. In reality, the year 2020, still appeared unreachable, a number that was soooo far away. And we are here, here I am, here you are. It will be another year, another decade, another wrinkle, another unicorn sparkle and another age. I am alive. You are alive because you are reading this. In my deepst darkness moments in life, who would never have imagined how beautiful life can be. If you would have asked me where I’d be in 2020 in the year 2000, I would have laughed at the thought of where I am today. This is life folks, this is a young 40ish female sharing this with you! We have goals and ambitions, if we keep going forward, we will get there, YOU will get there! Life is awesome!

So, onto to the new and out with the old. Happy New Year. Cheers to 2020! I hope all your life goals are made a reality!

Namaste,

Camille, aka #camistar

Easter Meanings….

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Today is Easter, which has different meanings depending on your culture and belief systems.

A popular version of the meaning of “Easter” is from Christianity. It is the belief that Jesus Christ has resurrected from death. His resurrection is a symbol of eternal life that is given to all who believe in him.

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But, Easter did not necessarily begin with Jesus. It actually began as a Pagan celebration of the of “Eostara”, the Goddess of rebirth. Pagan followers would have a “Feast of Eostara”, which celebrated the resurrection and rebirth of Mother Earth.

Today, in the 21st Century, the most popular version of Easter is Easter Eggs, the Easter Bunny, Easter Baskets and food with family. Some attend church if Christian and others celebrate life.

If you look at history and the actual definition of Easter, it is the celebration of life! It is a celebration of rebirth. What happened to Jesus? He came back to life, rebirth! Pagan’s celebrated the Goddess of rebirth! Easter Eggs is a symbol of rebirth!

Regardless of your beliefs, sit in peace with yourself and rebuild yourself to your highest. Spring is a time of rebirth of flowers and plants. It is a beautiful time where not only Mother Earth comes back to life, but so can you!

happy easter

@camistar.com

Ten Truth’s…….

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Ten Truth’s you should abide by to get through the reality of life……

Can you handle it? You are the only one who shall abide and know…….

  1. A man will say whatever you want to hear to get in your pants (not a true story as I know reality, but I know of females who have gone through this)
  2. A women will tell you anything you want to hear to keep you beside her (I’ve seen it all)
  3. Kids (your own) will drive you nuts (literally)
  4. Your parents love you unconditionally  (for reals)
  5. Your co-workers are fake (I’ve seen it first hand, but you may find a real one here and there)
  6. Your boss should be your “Best Friend” (or you won’t have a job for long)
  7. Don’t ever complain or make a fuss while at a new job or on “probation” (true story)
  8. Don’t confront, question or yell at a Police Officer, they will gripe you by your balls or ovaries (as seen on social media)
  9. When you think you’re “depressed”, get off your ass because you’re really in a rut (seen by so many)
  10. If you’re truly “depressed”, take your damn happy pills (if you don’t, you’re susceptible to deep depression and suicide)

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Resolutions or Wishes?

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It is upon us.  A New Year.  By the way, Happy New Year to my fellow Bloggers, Writers and Poets!  On that note, my mind is wondering (which it always is), where the idea or term “New Years Resolution” stems from.

What is a New Year without a few “resolutions” or what I call “wishes”.  To me, a “New Years Wish” is the same as creating a mental wish before blowing out your birthday candles. A wish is something you would like or something you would like to work toward.

candlesI do believe when you speak of your wants, needs and “wishes”, they do become more of a reality as you are speaking it out into the Universe.  For example, when you say, “I’m  happy”, your mind really believes it.  The same is for being “sad, dumb or depressed”.  The more you say whatever it is, your mind becomes that particular belief.  This has been discussed in deepness by many Spiritual Authors (i.e. Don Miguel Ruiz) and Scientist are beginning to catch on to this theory.  I mean, everything around us is living, even the air.  So, when you say something whether it is positive or negative, there is a high chance that it shall come to life.

resolutionWith that being said, I shall speak (in this case write, but speaking shall occur) my 2019 New Years Wishes NOT “resolutions”.  Not resolutions?  Why is that?  Well, thanks for asking. I believe the word “resolution(s)” is a silly word to use when attempting to grow positively into a new year.  Where did that word even come from?  Why do we even associate that word with something that is supposed to be positive?  Because I am who I am, I began pondering and questioning why we say “New Years Resolutions”, when in reality, the word “resolution” is a short and factual word.  It means to make a definite decision to complete something or do something with no wiggle worm.  To me, it is more of a negative word because when we say “resolution”, it means we are attempting to solve a “problem” or “dispute” something.

Hmmm….that’s NOT what my New Year’s Wishes are made of.  My wishes come from my heart and soul.  I make wishes not because there is a problem or dispute, but because I either want to grow spiritually, mentally or physically.

aAccording to the Cambridge Dictionary, it states a “New Years Resolution is promise that you make to yourself to start doing something good or stop doing something bad on the first day of the year”

There it is, it is to change something “bad”.  Yes, we are attempting to change “something”, but because I live a positive life, I don’t care much for the negative aspect or definition of using this word.

posI dug deeper because that’s what I do when I’m questioning something.  When you think about it, humanity began on a positive note.  Somewhere on our timeline, humanity moved from positive to “bad”, so this idea of a New Year’s “Resolution” came from some dark root.  But, my question is where?

According to History.com:

  • 4,000 years ago, Ancient Babylonians were the first to make “New Year’s Resolutions” in honor of the new year.   Their “resolutions” were actually “promises” (which is a positive idea) to their Gods to pay their debts and return any objects they had borrowed.
  • In ancient Rome, Julius Caesar messed with the months and established “January 1st” at the beginning of the “new year” around 46B.C.  This was a special day for the Romans as they saw it as looking back into the previous year and moving forward to the future.  They also made “promises” and offered sacrifices to their deity in order to have a good new year.  (another positive idea)
  • In 1790, early Christians made a tradition on January 1st for thinking about one’s past “mistakes” and how to be “better in the future”.  (Okay, here we go.  This is the beginning of the negative thoughts! They (Christians) started the idea of looking at one’s downfalls, their wrongs and mistakes)
  • “New Year’s resolutions today are a mostly secular practice. Instead of making promises to the gods, most people make resolutions only to themselves, and focus purely on self-improvement (which may explain why such resolutions seem so hard to follow through on). According to recent research, while as many as 45 percent of Americans say they usually make New Year’s resolutions, only 8 percent are successful in achieving their goals.”

And there we have it! The term/word/thought, “resolution” was born around 1790.  I am rejecting this negative connotation because I can!  I fathom negative thoughts because I know that negativity is like a virus and if I can help it, I will stray from that virus.

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My New Years Wishes are simple.  I always try to stick to three, it is a number that is simply to reach.

  1.  To become more environmentally conscious in all areas of my life
  2. To become healthier.  To me that means eating food that will not only benefit me, but also my children, my husband and the environment.  It also means becoming more physically active, so I can keep my heart and blood flowing.
  3. To write more.  With my busy life, I lack on my writing hobby.  When I do write, I honestly feel more connected to who I really am.  It empowers me.  It is something that I cannot explain.

Cheers to a New and positive New Year!

-Cami*Star 2019

 

Thanksgiving

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As Americanos, we have been celebrating the day of thanks or what we call “Thanksgiving”.  This day means so much more than what the media portrays it as, but I’m sure you already know that false lie.

“Thanksgiving” is not about Pilgrims and Natives coming together to unite.  That whole ideal has been thrown out into the trash as we awakened to realize what really happened.

“Thanksgiving” is not about Black Friday and all the deals you are looking forward too.  That is consumerism at its best!

“Thanksgiving” is a day of giving thanks to all that we have.  It is being grateful for the little things such as your child’s laugh and their silly frustrations.  It is being thankful for your health and a simple smile shone your way.

Below are ten reasons why I live, why I love and why I continue to thrive……

  1.  My 16 year old who is intelligent, an Anime nerd and my witty daughter.  She is my first born and awakened me to what love truly is.   When I look back at the days when she was born, I was so young yet I matured once she entered my world.  She has taught me internal patience and unconditional love.  I have 16 years of beautiful memories that can never be replaced!
  2. My 7 year old who is funny, intelligent and motivated to learn!  She has taught me to live free and how to enjoy the little things in life.  I was much older when she came into my life and it was a bit of a struggle, but I overcame my struggles and it made me a stronger female.  She is the light of the family that can bring my stress down in a second!
  3. My husband. Being married is a fairy tale mixed with reality.  He is my other half and I’m so grateful for all that he does for my daughters and I.  He has taught me that no matter what happens, he is my forever and who can not be grateful for that?!
  4. My Mother.  She is a fighter!  She has fought against addiction, cancer and other health problems.  She continues to keep going, which I’m so grateful for! I have so many beautiful memories of her helping mold me as a child!
  5. My Brother.  He has been such a help to me as I was a single mother and even now as I’m married.  How can I not be grateful for him, when he helps watch my little one (his youngest niece)! He even helps clean my house while he awaits to pick up the little one. At the end of the day, I’m grateful that he is probably one of the only souls who knows the true me.
  6. My Father.  He is smiling down from heaven and has left his legacy of his intelligence, his wit and his love of great music!  Although he struggled with addiction, he never lost the love he had for his children!  His hand and his heart was always open and he was always there for me whether it was to pay for college or just a much needed hug!
  7. My career.  I love, love, love teaching and I cannot say how thankful I am for having the ability to do what I do.  Some people live their lives working miserably.  Some work hard for years and years only to make pennies.  I have been blessed to have everything wrapped into my career!  I can only thank my internal will to get through college.  At times, I wonder how the heck I did it, but I did and I loved every moment of it.  College was honestly one of the best experiences of my life.  I grew internally and learned so much during those years.  It made me happy to see how proud it made my Dad while I went through college.  And it obviously all paid off!
  8.  My God.  There are many, many people who understands who and what “God” is all about.  I am grateful that I have always had a relationship with my God and he/she has always been by my side.  If you have a true relationship with your God, you understand and comprehend that love.  I can share a few stories with you where I put all my faith in God when I had nothing physically or emotionally and I’ve ALWAYS, ALWAYS, been taken care of!  There are not enough thank you’s for my beautiful God!
  9. My Grandma Moralez. She was such a great Grandmother.  She loved all of her grandchildren, but I truly feel we had a special relationship due to my particular teen upbringing.  She took me in, she guided me, she was patient, she was funny, loving and a great cook!  I love her so much that it truly still hurts that she departed to heaven.  I’m beyond grateful for her for stepping up and helping me through my high school years.  She taught me how to cook, clean and most importantly, how to live a life with morals and how to give all negativity to God.
  10. Last, but not least, I’m ever so grateful for each student and school/teacher friends who have come and gone throughout my life!  I began teaching as a young adult whilst learning who I was.  I’ve grown into the person I am because of all those little and big students.  Each one of them has taught me something even when it was nothing.  Not only that, but there have been so many positive people I’ve met who stamped their knowledge onto my soul.  I have a few of my school/teacher friends who I still talk to and have become life friends with!  A few of my high school adult students still keep in contact with me.  Now, that is gratefulness at its finest!

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Fires Burning

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In a time of need, why is it that our country allows us to bleed?

Allows us to “believe” we are free,

Turns their heads, so they cannot see our tears of dread,

Mother Earth in pained. 

Fires burning down human hands sculptures,

Political Leaders with words of blunder,

Left to feen for one sip of comfort.

Mother Earth is Angered!

Unless you are of Conscious Beliefs, you cannot see,

She cries, she screams and gets herself in a whirlwind of anger,

I sympathize with her pain, I attempt to nourish her plains,

Mother Earth is Drained. 

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-Cami*Star

November 2018

 

 

 

 

Parasite Mind….

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I’m sure you’ve heard the saying, “Your mind can be your worse enemy”.

I sit here re-writing this idea. I sit here re-thinking this idea. This idea is easily forgotten in our chaotic lives.

An author who really stands out to me in regards to this topic is Don Miguel Ruiz.  He writes spiritual books on releasing negative thinking to the positive .  In his Native Mexican tribe, they say the mind is programmed by our society.  We are born a blank slate.

So, the main question is, how did we begin all these negative thoughts?  How did our humanity begin to talk negatively to ourselves?

Society!

In a judgmental society, he says our minds are a “parasite” and we must fight it off.  But this is not realized until we are conscious.  We need to wake up!  Wake up to reality.  Wake up to our own well being!  Wake up to truth!

Television, radio and the internet tell us we cannot be happy unless we have this or that.  Our parents, guardians, caretakers and teachers may speak to us using negative comments.  These negative words flow into our minds and infect our minds exactly like a parasite (Don Miguel Ruiz).

When someone you look up to says, “try harder”, “be better”, “why can’t you do it”, what do you think happens to that blank slate of ours as we grow up?  You got it right, it taints the mind into thinking that you can’t do things right.  Then comes a commercial that says, “if you want to get it right…buy (blank)”.  There you have it.  It’s very simple.  Simple if you are fully aware of this.  Sadly, the majority of humans are not.

I’m tired of it.

I’m personally tired of my own negative thoughts and ideas.  But, I am ever so grateful that I am able to catch myself and redirect my own thoughts.  But it is damn hard!  But I see other people who cannot stop it!  It’s so sad!

This is exactly why I do not watch much T.V. The commercials will bring you down to the ground.

I hope you can bring a positive conscious mindset to your lives.  Stop reading about all the things you need to be happy.  Stop watching commercials that tell you to buy certain things, so you’ll be happy.

Just stop!

Tell yourself you can do it!  Love yourself.  Most importantly, watch what you say to the young ones.

-Cami-Star

#parasites

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Fathers are Awesome!

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It’s that time of the year to say thank you to all those “fathers” who have stepped up and provided for a child physically, mentally and emotionally. 

A father is not just a man who “created” life. A “father” is a man who has taken the reigns and provided by their own will. It may be a grandfather, uncle, brother, family friend, or a step-father. 

Fathers day is a special day because of the lack of fathers out in the world. Mothers (most) have an instinctual guide to help us parent. Fathers do not (most). I believe this is why it is so easy for so many men to walk away from their own children. 

This is why I give father figures the utmost respect because they have taken on a role by their own choice. They have a special kindness in their hearts to embrace the love children give. 

Happy Fathers day yesterday, today and tomorrow!

To my own father, thank you for showing me what unconditional love looks and feels like. Thank you for teaching me how to ride a bike, which taught me determination. Thank you for correcting my grammar, which has helped me sound “somewhat intelligent” (haha).  Thank you for being my parent. I love you. I miss YOU. You are in my “Strawberry Fields” forever 🍓.