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Parasite Mind….

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I’m sure you’ve heard the saying, “Your mind can be your worse enemy”.

I sit here re-writing this idea. I sit here re-thinking this idea. This idea is easily forgotten in our chaotic lives.

An author who really stands out to me in regards to this topic is Don Miguel Ruiz.  He writes spiritual books on releasing negative thinking to the positive .  In his Native Mexican tribe, they say the mind is programmed by our society.  We are born a blank slate.

So, the main question is, how did we begin all these negative thoughts?  How did our humanity begin to talk negatively to ourselves?

Society!

In a judgmental society, he says our minds are a “parasite” and we must fight it off.  But this is not realized until we are conscious.  We need to wake up!  Wake up to reality.  Wake up to our own well being!  Wake up to truth!

Television, radio and the internet tell us we cannot be happy unless we have this or that.  Our parents, guardians, caretakers and teachers may speak to us using negative comments.  These negative words flow into our minds and infect our minds exactly like a parasite (Don Miguel Ruiz).

When someone you look up to says, “try harder”, “be better”, “why can’t you do it”, what do you think happens to that blank slate of ours as we grow up?  You got it right, it taints the mind into thinking that you can’t do things right.  Then comes a commercial that says, “if you want to get it right…buy (blank)”.  There you have it.  It’s very simple.  Simple if you are fully aware of this.  Sadly, the majority of humans are not.

I’m tired of it.

I’m personally tired of my own negative thoughts and ideas.  But, I am ever so grateful that I am able to catch myself and redirect my own thoughts.  But it is damn hard!  But I see other people who cannot stop it!  It’s so sad!

This is exactly why I do not watch much T.V. The commercials will bring you down to the ground.

I hope you can bring a positive conscious mindset to your lives.  Stop reading about all the things you need to be happy.  Stop watching commercials that tell you to buy certain things, so you’ll be happy.

Just stop!

Tell yourself you can do it!  Love yourself.  Most importantly, watch what you say to the young ones.

-Cami-Star

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Fathers are Awesome!

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It’s that time of the year to say thank you to all those “fathers” who have stepped up and provided for a child physically, mentally and emotionally. 

A father is not just a man who “created” life. A “father” is a man who has taken the reigns and provided by their own will. It may be a grandfather, uncle, brother, family friend, or a step-father. 

Fathers day is a special day because of the lack of fathers out in the world. Mothers (most) have an instinctual guide to help us parent. Fathers do not (most). I believe this is why it is so easy for so many men to walk away from their own children. 

This is why I give father figures the utmost respect because they have taken on a role by their own choice. They have a special kindness in their hearts to embrace the love children give. 

Happy Fathers day yesterday, today and tomorrow!

To my own father, thank you for showing me what unconditional love looks and feels like. Thank you for teaching me how to ride a bike, which taught me determination. Thank you for correcting my grammar, which has helped me sound “somewhat intelligent” (haha).  Thank you for being my parent. I love you. I miss YOU. You are in my “Strawberry Fields” forever 🍓.

Trapped Trump Mind

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​I have not written in a while. I’ve had so many thoughts, but overwhelmed with our current political situation. My mind has been beyond disturbed. This is the year 2017, but I feel like we have been transported to the year 1960. What if we have been? What if we went through some cosmic black hole and we have to re-live our history? Something happened because my mind tells me this is not natural. Its is not real, but it is, it really is!

My romantic, spiritual and creative juices have been halted. In honor of my poetic mind, I am giving you a glimpse of where my mind has been. I wish I could share how in love I am with my two beautiful daughters or how my man swoons me with his brown eyes, but I unfortunately can’t. I have an unhealthy obsession. 

If I share my trapped Trump mind, hopefully he will be released into a ball of negative thoughts and flown far away from my vibes. The hope is that once he is released like a wild animal, my creative thoughts can sneak back in. 

Now back to my current obsession. This is not an obsession I have chosen like my 14 year old, who cannot stop watching You Tube videos when asked 100 times to get off. Or that delicious chocolate cake that is calling your name. No, this is a political obsession. A sad, unhappy, disturbed obsession. 

It is called a Trump obsession. 

I am in shock and I cannot accept the fact that almost half of the U.S. backs him up. I don’t get it. His followers will say anything to make it seem okay that he grabbed the U.S. and has shook it like a snow globe, each piece falling to the ground opposing his orders. Trump is acting as if nothing (our consititution) and no one (judges) can get between him and his own, personal political agenda. 

This meme tells it all. It has not even been a month and he has written executive orders as if his Presidency was coming to an end (wishful thinking). He has opened the eyes to the American people (one positive) and “The People”, yes I say it loud and proud, “THE PEOPLE”, have gathered in thousands to protest his impulsive orders. 

Before I share the top 3 protests where ” The People” have come together in masses, let me share my all time favorite quote. This was stated 700 years ago. This is proof that humanity has a challenging time accepting our wrongs in order to make changes for a better future. It seems like commen sense, but humans are complex. We are not only an animal species sharing a space on earth, but we have been blessed with a part of our brains that has awakened and can feel emotions. With emotions, comes greed, jealousy and fear with a mix of dominance from our animal side. Anyhow, I digress. 

A man named Dante once said, The hottest places in hell, are reserved for those who, in times of great moral crises, maintain their neutrality”. I share this great quote today because we are living in a “great moral crises”. This is not a time to be neutral. We have to stand up, speak up and resist our backward thinking of Trump and his ADMINISTRATION and  WE HAVE AND WE WILL RESIST,  unless of course you are a Trumper. In that case, embrace him, but be aware that you will be supporting divisions, hate and irrational orders (Trumpers skip down to “Quote 1”).

 Once upon a time, in the year 2017, masses of American Citizens gathered together to revolt against a President who won the Electoral Vote, not the Popular Vote, but an Electoral Vote that changed the world.

After his official innaguration on January 20, 2017, women, men and their children around the WORLD gathered for one of the largest protests in history. “The Women’s March”, (which yes, I was part of in Los Angeles, California) was officially held in Washington D.C. The turnout was larger than Trumps own innaguration, which he refuses to accept (please note that he has a challenging time accepting anything that is not in his favor). To clarify, this protest was NOT only on Women’s Rights as many Trump Trolls want to argue, it was to awaken Trump and his Administration that The People have heard him and we will NOT stand by and allow him to bully us with his hateful ways (i.e.female reproductive rights, immigration rights, equality among religions). Sister cities across the United States AND THE WORLD (France, U.K, Australia) came together and made waves. It was displayed on all News Channels, on Social Media and in conversations throughout the week. 

This is history. Our sons and daughters will be affected by Trumps orders. He is a man and he wants to make a decision regarding Women’s Productive Rights. Our children’s education will be affected by his choice of Secretary of Education, who is naive and does not know a lick of public education (Betsy Devos). This is why there was a protest. It was a revolt, it was throwing up on his backward thinking. (Pictures taken by myself in Downtown, Los Angeles, January 2017)

Then there was an Executive Order that came from an insensitive, lack of clear thinking (oh, did I say that out loud) President that banned 7 countries in the Middle East that are seen as “Muslim Countries”from entering the U.S. via airports. This order was based on wanting to “keep America safe from terrorist”. Mind you, this included people who had visas. This included infants and humans who have already established that they were not terrorists! The people once again gathered together and protested at airports across the U.S. The People took this order to court and stopped his Executive Order and our loving world moved on. Oh wait, the world wanted to move on, but as mentioned above, Trump lacks the ability to accept the consensus of The People and the Constitution, so life didn’t smoothly move on. He rejected the Judges order that was based on the Constitution as seen in his Tweet “The opinion of this so-called judge, which essentially takes law-enforcement away from our country, is ridiculous and will be overturned.” There you have it my fellow humans. Not much can be said after that Tweet and once again, this is the year 2017!

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You would think it would end there. Nope. Then there is “The Wall”. This is Trumps idea of stopping illegal immigration coming from the Mexico/U.S. border. I’m sure you’ve read or heard about this “Wall”. 

First, Trump demanded that Mexico pay for this wall in which they rightfully refused. Then he said he will tax the American people and Mexico will pay the U.S. back and Mexico once again rightfully refused. This was a joke right? Sadly, this is real! Who does that? I mean, if the world ran like that, everyone would be jacked, literally. He is a thug, attempting to pull a fast one on Mexico.

Sorry Trump, but as much as you look down on Mexicans, as you can see, they are much smarter than you thought! I mean, what did you think? Did you really think they would bow down and say, “Oh OKAY,  Trump. Yeah, you’re right, all of the people that attempt to sneak into your country due to poverty or drug smuggling should be stopped and we will definitely work with you by paying for a wall that we know will NOT stop them”. This is real people. I wish I could make all of this up, but this is real!

Mind you, this is Trumps “idea, not Mexico or the majority of the American people. Finally or finalmente en espanol, he had to scramble on how he will pay for this “wall”, so he stated he will not tax the American people, but instead he will tax all goods coming through the border (which still affects the American people). With that being said, people are not happy with this idea and have protested throughout his campaign and post innaguration. 

I will say it again and again, this is real! This is really happening. 

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As I enjoy reading reactions for or against  Trump, I found this great response to Trump and his Executive Orders. I did not write this, but I would like to share this women’s rebuttal as she wrote exactly what I am thinking:

Quote 1-“To everyone of you that voted for Trump, and continue to stand with him; If and when we go to War, send your Children and Grandchildren to fight it. OWN IT. When our Earth is damaged beyond repair, OWN IT. When our Seniors and Children die from no food and healthcare, OWN IT. Tell the parents of the refugee child that dies waiting for help, you were doing Christ’s work. OWN IT. Tell the Soldier’s family that died fighting for an unknown cause, to pray for comfort. OWN IT. Tell the Cancer patient with no healthcare coverage, they need Jesus. OWN IT. When your Daughters and Granddaughters are told they do not deserve Human rights. OWN IT. When the 3 year old neighbor is killed by a Mentally ill Vagrant brandishing a gun he should not be legally able to own, please explain Jesus to them. OWN IT. Tell everyone in his path of destruction you voted for him and OWN IT! (To everyone of you that voted for Trump, and continue to stand with him; If and when we go to War, send your Children and Grandchildren to fight it. OWN IT. When our Earth is damaged beyond repair, OWN IT. When our Seniors and Children die from no food and healthcare, OWN IT. Tell the parents of the refugee child that dies waiting for help, you were doing Christ’s work. OWN IT. Tell the Soldier’s family that died fighting for an unknown cause, to pray for comfort. OWN IT. Tell the Cancer patient with no healthcare coverage, they need Jesus. OWN IT. When your Daughters and Granddaughters are told they do not deserve Human rights. OWN IT. When the 3 year old neighbor is killed by a Mentally ill Vagrant brandishing a gun he should not be legally able to own, please explain Jesus to them. OWN IT. Tell everyone in his path of destruction you voted for him and OWN IT! (Anna Maria Serrano via Facebook)

Now, my trapped Trump mind has been released. Please share. Please react. Please dispute. I enjoy a great debate over a glass of wine or warm coffee. 

©Cami*Star, February 2017

Be The Revolution!

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​”Viva La Revolucion in Ustados Unidos 2016″

Today in the year 2016, I never thought I would be living through this chaos. Can you believe it? I absolutely cannot! It is unreal.  We have “Black lives matter” only because our police racially profile. Today Native Americans are being brutalized all because they are trying to continue to protect their sacred land as well as everyone’s drinking water (unreal).  You can talk to almost all Americans protesting the president-elect Mr. Donald Trump. We read about the KKK (what the hell is going on?!) protesting white power. It is beyond unbelievable. I feel like I’m in a nightmare awaiting to be awoken. It is beyond fearful for what tomorrow may become.

As a child of the 80s, I grew up in a lower to middle class world. I did not know what “the struggle” was as I always had a roof, food, clothing and an education. The biggest thing I had was a working mother who taught me what her and her family went through in the 1950 and 60s. My dad grew up in East L.A. and he spoke of the walk-outs and how proud we should be to be Mexican American. But around me, I never saw hate. Was I sheltered? Or was I just being a kid unaware of reality?

As a latchkey child, I knew how to be independent, which helped me get through college. It is when I was in college when I awakened. I finally learned what the real world was made of. I read about women equality issues, racial segregation to political corruption. My eyes and ears opened. My life would never be the same. It was like walking through a door to another universe.

I swam through the high and low tides of our ocean while doing what I can as an activist for human rights. I happily sat at N.O.W. (National Organization of Women) meetings while brainstorming how to educate our world on women’s rights. I spent weekends in Needles, Ca. on an Indian Reservation protesting the government on them taking their land (again). 
Then, I had kids and did not have the time to do the footwork of an activist, but what I have done, is teach my daughter’s what the real world is. They know of the political corruption and how to treat everyone equally regardless of their race, class or gender. Today, I am not afraid to speak on behalf of my own personal rights in regards to my race, gender or employment. 

My biggest revolution today is to make sure all kids with special needs have equal access to a free and appropriate education. Everyone has a different agenda, but regardless of your agenda, of all days, of all years, this is NOT the time to sit and be quiet. 

One of my favorite quotes comes from Dante, “The hottest places in hell are reserved for those who, in times of great moral crisis, maintain their neutrality”. Today we are living what will be written in future history books. 

Speak up!

Yell!

Talk!

Spread knowledge!

Fight the corruption or it WILL fight you down to the ground! 

Blotch of a Day

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I’m looking forward to tomorrow. A new day. A new sun. New air. New light. I just want a new day. Like today was a fucken blotch and I can’t wait for a retry, like when you lose on PAC-Man, you get two more chances and then you die. Except, I won’t die, I’ll just wake-up and have another try.

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A Letter to my Future Husband

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Dear future husband,

If I decide to spend the rest of my life with you, please note that you will be loved, needed and cared for, for a very long time. With that being said, please know that I am a simple girl. Please do not buy me a huge diamond ring! Did you know that diamonds are not a girls best friend? They are stones of slavery and unneeded labor! Instead, I would be happy with a simple antique ring. A ring that represents our love.

Instead of spending hundreds if not thousands of dollars on a big wedding, I’d rather have an intimate gathering celebrating our union. Family, close friends and us. That’s all we need. Why not use all that money to buy ourselves a home, a home we can call home!

Please understand that as we become a union, I am also an independent women, I am “me”. I may need my own quite time to regroup. I might want to be alone to read or write. But you should know this already.

Please don’t buy into all the hallmark holidays! Don’t buy me flowers and candy on Valentines day! Instead hug me and kiss me every night! Surprise me every once in a while with a token of your love.

You see, to me, love is simple. Love is cooking for you, feeding your heart and soul. It is you holding me when I had a hard day. It is trusting me and I you. It is laying in bed while listening to the rain.

My love is simple.

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Love,

Your future wife

Soul Blogging

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There are many different types of humans in this world. I have met lovers of life, liars and those who are stuck in their own darkness. But the individuals we can really see are those who we are intimate with. Intimacy breaks down all walls and we can see their whole soul.

I have to say, throughout my adulthood, regardless of what one may have or have not gone through, I have the utmost respect for the soul that can look at one person and be only about that one person.

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That soul is me, but I already respect myself and maybe this is why I respect individuals who can be monogamous.

I don’t know, maybe it’s just me, but I feel like we only have one life, we should enjoy it to our fullest potential(s). And when we meet someone we connect with, why not enjoy it and take the beautiful ride?

Not all humans believe in this way of life, but maybe one day, they’ll wake up and see how beautiful one soul can be for them, especially the one soul they connect with.

Until then, the soul that walks next to me is the soul I respect. That soul will get the deepest love I can offer because tomorrow is never promised, so I shall live for today!

Namaste,

Cami*Star 2015

A comedic moment

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**Adult Content

A comedic moment that ended up turning into something that was a collaborative free flow short session.

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Driving to their nightly destination, engulfed in simple small talk, she thinks of the night they had a week ago and the story is told as such:
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She lightly said with a poetic beat in her voice:

We walked down a dark alley, This time we’re in a dark city”

He happily and rhymingly responded with:

“and you went down on ME!!”

And she thought, “huh” “what” “where did THAT come from” as they both laughed it off”

Comedic conversations are the best!

Top 10 ways I grew into who I am TODAY

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1. I pray. I pray just about every second of the day. And guess what? My higher power, my Lord, The Universal Laws have NEVER let me down.

2. I read. I cannot go through my day without reading. I read fiction, nonfiction and anything on spirituality. It takes me to another world, it dives into my imagination!

3. I write. I write a minimum of once a day whether it be journaling, poetry or stories. Writing is my therapy. Writing levels me. I have lived without writing and it’s like dark boredom!

5. I have attempted to wean myself from all pharmaceuticals. Our Doctors prescribe, prescribe and prescribe more pills more than ever. One day, I just stopped and it’s funny how all my physical pain just went away.  I used to need to take sleeping pills to sleep, then a pill to wake up, then a pill to stay calm.  I am free from money hungry pill makers and I feel damn good!

6. I wake up thankful for another day. I used to dread waking up. I didn’t want to confront my work day and do the hustle and bustle of the day. It is as simple as being thankful just to be able to open my eyes and have the ability to be alive one more day. It is being grateful.

7. I do NOT take anything personal! Everyone is living their own stories, whatever baggage they carry around is THEIR baggage, not mine! I only take myself personal! It really makes life worth living with a skip in my beat!

8. I live without expectations! I used to have high expectations and had a vision of my future that I wasn’t enjoying what I had right in front of me. Now I live in the present and take life as it comes without any expectations. It is actually fun to have no expectations except to be happy!

9. I take chances. I used to live in fear. Fear of getting hurt. Fear of leaving a miserable job. Just plain fear. It was or is like jumping off a cliff with thoughts that all will be fine regardless if you break a leg or only get scratched up.

10. I woke up. Plain and simple. I am not fogged. My eyes are open, ears are listening and I can breath in the fresh air (what is left of it). I plain and simply enjoy what is right in front of me. If it does not serve my purpose in life, I let it go.

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Namaste,

Cami*Star 2015

One Positive Day

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How about for one day, we just stop bashing one another! I’m so sick and tired of hearing and reading about hateful words. All these humans in the world complain about x,y, and z, but they don’t realize they’re part of the problem!

I’m so serious! I would love for everyone to be positive just for one day. For example, instead of caring what celebrities look like without make-up, instead give them props to be able to be themselves in a judgmental world. Or instead of saying how fat a guy/girl is, maybe finding something beautiful about them. The biggest one is, instead of complaining how jacked up your life is, how about looking at all your blessings. I mean, c’mon, you’re alive, right?

Our world, your world, your sense of well-being will NEVER change unless you change your thoughts!

I don’t get why this idea isn’t even taught in school’s! Instead, kids are taught to rat out their bullies. How about working with these bullies, giving them some spiritual guidance instead of suspending them.

Our whole system is backward thinking. We don’t try to help anyone be better humans, instead we bash, bash, bash. We imprison the souls who are suffering and they only come out worse! We don’t reward college grads with awesome jobs, instead we kill them (including myself) with student loans only to become enslaved to money.

All these single mom’s in our world don’t get high fives, instead they get criticized and made to feel guilty because they are doing it alone instead of doing it with a partner ( which is some kinda great thing in our society). Instead we reward married couples who stay together for the sake of their kin when in reality they may be miserable. Geesh!

Let’s break these backward thoughts and ideas! Let’s move to a new world! A world that is full of positive radiance. Where everyone is beautiful and nothing is ugly.

I know, I know, wishful thinking, but maybe, maybe one day before I leave mother earth we will move closer to love rather than hate.

Who knows.

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