Millisecond

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It’s funny how some think you are so strong! But being strong can only last so long……

She broke. She finally broke. …

She is the strong one, holding everyone’s glue together, but what about her own soul?

Oh, her soul!

Taking care of two beautiful girls all on her own! No daddy around although she is so bold! Daily clatter in one ear and out the other just to survive! Screeching whines all for one tiny sharing crime! Oh the joys of motherhood yet insanity of holding it up alone. How can she get one to bring up her grades, the other to learn her ABC’s while trying to grow on her own!

Oh, her soul!

She’s tired! She’s fucken tired of this game called life!

She just wants to lay on a bed of white and relax with the moon and stars, but apparently this is not such a store. Instead, she wakes up before the crack of dawn getting ready for her daily grind.

Making breakfast for all to ensure her girls have a strong brain for the day. Making lunch to ensure to stay within the budget. Reminding the older one to brush her hair, brush her teeth, while screaming in her head with annoyance that this child does not get it! Rushing the little one to wake up and get dressed while sadness hits her heart that she can’t be home with her sweet tod. Instead she must drop her off from dawn till dusk just to make that buck!  How many fucken emotions can one deal with so early in the morn!

Oh, her soul!

Out the door for only 5 when the little one runs away with tears in her eyes. She holds in her tears, takes her precious loves to school, while meditating to work to try to keep it together.

Some days are good, some are grand some not so my bad. But today she finally broke…….

She broke just for a millisecond…..

About Cami*Star

I am an onion, peeled with many layers. My mind is an ever-flowing thinking machine. I love writing all my thoughts on paper and some get published here on my blog. I am a deep thinker, which brings along deep feelings-positively for the most part! I am a feminist, poet, writer, blogger, parent of two beautiful girls, a special education teacher, a lover, a friend, a daughter, a sister and most importantly a spiritual warrior! Thank you for reading All About Me and checking out my blog! Much appreciation from your truly, Cami*Star

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