The Unknown

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Today is a very SPECIAL DAY.

One year ago, I laid on my couch.

I sat, enjoying the cool breeze brisking into my living room.

I looked around my cottage and saw nothing but stillness.

The stillness held a future that was unknown.

The unknown is scary, yet beautiful at the same time.

Today is a very SPECIAL DAY.

I felt that punch.

It felt stronger, stronger, and stronger.

Was it happening?

I laid, looking around, looking at the universe.

I wondered.

Is it time?

I was scared.

I did not know what my future what hold.

I breathed.

I shed a tear.

I longed for him to do this with me,

He was gone!

He did not want anything to do with it.

Punch. Kick. Scream.

More. More. More.

It was time!

I had to go.

I was alone.

The universe had a plan for me and I went with it.

I got there.

I was safe.

She was coming.

I was scared.

I breathed.

I knew it would all be okay.

I went under.

Under the knife.

Numbness.

Fear.

What is to come?

She arrived!

The unknown!

Here it is!

I heard her.

A roar of a cry was expelled.

It sounded like a wounded cat,

But she was alive.

I was alive.

I did it.

I saw her.

I smiled.

I cried tears of joy.

She was beautiful!

Blonde Hair.

Brown Eyes.

Cries.

And my journey began with the most beautiful baby in June 2011.

Maya Star and that is who you are!

Happy Birthday to my cupcake!

We made it to one year and I know all the years to come will be nothing, but joy.

About Cami*Star

I am an onion, peeled with many layers. My mind is an ever-flowing thinking machine. I love writing all my thoughts on paper and some get published here on my blog. I am a deep thinker, which brings along deep feelings-positively for the most part! I am a feminist, poet, writer, blogger, parent of two beautiful girls, a special education teacher, a lover, a friend, a daughter, a sister and most importantly a spiritual warrior! Thank you for reading All About Me and checking out my blog! Much appreciation from your truly, Cami*Star

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